Here is another pathetic confession for your blog. Back in college I had one of the hottest girls on campus as my girlfriend. Well I thought I did. Early evenings after dinner in the cafeteria, we would do our homework, well I would do hers and then finish mine later. I was so horny I tried to have sex with her and she refused saying that she was a virgin, she wasn’t ready for sex and that we needed to wait. After that, she would let me lick her pussy, but I had to keep my clothes on and I couldn’t jerk off in front of her. And then she would tell me to go back to my dorm room and do it there, I wasn’t allowed to masturbate in front of her. She thought that was rude. I was willing to wait for Tamara to be ready for sex. I respected that she was a virgin. In fact I thought it was good that she didn’t have any sexual experience. Because I knew my dick wasn’t big compared to guys I saw in the locker room in HS and in college. But I had a great body, was an athlete (lacrosse), girls told me I was cute etc.
The college I was going to is a huge university. But no matter how huge a university is, it’s a small world after all as the Disney song goes. Word soon word got back to me that my beautiful girlfriend Tamara was fucking black guys. I couldn’t believe it. I thought it was a cruel joke played on me by guys who were jealous I had such a beautiful girlfriend. But then I stalked her one night after we were done studying, following her from her dorm and saw her meet up with a black stud football player. OMG I went back to my dorm room and jacked off to that. I had no clue I was a cuckold. I kept acting like Tamara was my girlfriend, I kept doing her homework, I kept licking her pussy that black guys were fucking. She kept telling me no sex, and how she might stay a virgin till she got married and I just pretended it was the truth. I could have let her go and found another girlfriend but I was so into this girl and the powerful and exciting sexual feelings I felt.
I didn’t know I was a cuckold. I didn’t even know the word existed. Then one night about seven years ago I saw this video of Shane Diesel fucking some hot blonde while they both laughed at and humiliated the blonde’s husband. The video was a cuckold video. I began watching cuckold videos all the time. And I looked up cuckolding online, which was how I originally found you on your Cuckoldress.com blog. OK you probably think I am naive, but I was only 23 then. As for my college cuckoldress girlfriend, Tamara broke off with me at the end of the semester and got herself another white boy cuckold for the next semester. Luckily I graduated ahead of her so I didn’t have to continue to bear the humiliation of what she did to me in front of my friends, but I still jerk off to the cuckold humiliation to this day. And now I can follow her on social media. Her twitter has so many links to rapper videos and references to hot black rappers and athletes. And she is always hash-tagging black cock related or attention whore hash tags on twitter like #eggplantfriday (pics of big black dicks) or #whitegirlwednesday (pics of hot white girls who love BBCs).
My cuckold confession is unbearable. Many cucks are not allowed to have sex with their hot wives or girlfriends at all. This is only natural. However, on the flip side, having sex with your hot wife when you are a cucky might be worse than no sex at all. My wife will occasionally have sex with me as her cuckold husband, but she only gives me pity fucks or humiliation fucks. This means I can only fuck her when she lets me, and this is how it happens… After she has been fucked by one of her two BBC boyfriends, and if she’s in the mood to humiliate me, she will let me fuck her. She doesn’t make her black bulls use condoms, so her pussy is always filled with their cum and it’s stretched out from their massive cocks. When I put my little 4.5 inch dick inside her, my tiny dick feels like it’s swimming in her creamy pussy. I can’t really get off and she knows it and she laughs at me and tells me to just use their superior sperm to stroke with and finish up. Then she makes me clean her pussy out with my tongue. She will often text one of them while I’m cleaning her pussy to advise them what I’m doing. One time she showed me the text response from her black stud named Romulus who texted her back: Good bitch.
Now my wife will tell me “good bitch” when I’ve done things that please her like cook steaks for her and one of her bulls on the grill, buy her a spa certificate, lick her pussy for hours or buy another bottle of her favorite perfume, Tom Ford Black Orchid. It’s almost $200 a bottle and she only wears it for her bulls, not for me.
From the Mistress Cuckold…
I recently met up with a cuckold who told me he was on Seeking Arrangement and wanted to speak with me in person about cuckolding, since we only lived an hour apart. He was in a critical situation, he said. We arranged to have coffee at an upscale cafe and he paid me for my cockold consultation time. He told me he signed up for Seeking Arrangement (a sugar daddy website) as some type of revenge against his wife, who was cuckholding him. She was no longer having sex with him at all. She was only having sex with well hung men she met on Tinder or Adult Friend Finder. He informed me that younger girls in college, 19 – 22, were at first interested in a sugar daddy relationship with him when he would email and chat with them on the site. He showed me the listing for one girl, a cute blonde Barbie type who, at first, wanted $1K a week from him. Her terms were that she would have sex with him twice a week for $1K. He negotiated it to $500 a week for a one time hook up. After a few hook ups, she laughed and told him that having sex with him was easy, because his dick was so small and he only lasted a few minutes. I also had to laugh at that. I said: “Did you really think you’d be able to escape being a cuckold? Even girls in college are going to cuckold you and take your money and laugh at you. Your dick is small and you cum quick. You’re a Sugar Daddy Cuckold.”
He had to hang his head and admit that this was true. He had met with other sugar babies from the site who didn’t even want to have sex with him, they wanted him to take them shopping. He said maybe they’d give him a hand job after or watch him jerk off after the shopping spree. Another sugar baby was too afraid to meet him alone the first time and brought her girlfriend to the hotel bar and then they went up to a hotel room for sex. Once she saw how small his dick was she called for her friend to come out of the bathroom to see his tiny dick and they both laughed at it. I told him he should continue being cuckolded by these college girls, since it was what he deserved anyway!
Sara, I’m mortally embarrassed about my cuckold situation. I broke up with my girlfriend I found out she was cheating on me. She had also been borrowing a lot of money from me and would laugh when I asked her to repay it. She also laughed when I broke up with her and told me good luck with finding another girlfriend, ever! And she even gave me the small pinky wave. I thought she had picked up all her stuff that was at my place, but turns out she had forgotten some lingerie. I was planning to throw out her slutty bras and panties and garter belt and stockings, but she texted me that she was going to be picking up the lingerie to wear for her man. I put everything in a shopping bag and hooked it around the outside doorknob of my condo so I wouldn’t have to deal with her. I’ll call her Jessica in this letter to you. When Jessica came by she rang the doorbell anyway, but I didn’t answer. What kind of wimp am I? I peeped through my mini-blinds and saw her leave in a car driven I assume by her new boyfriend. She then texted me a photo of a huge dick in her mouth. I assume that was her new boyfriend’s cock. I jerked off to that pic immediately. A few minutes later, she texted, so did you cum yet faggot? She told me to Google Wallet her some money and she would send me more pics of his cock. She wanted $100. So I sent her the money. Was she doing this in front of her new boyfriend while they were driving back to his place? Was her boyfriend laughing at me? Why did Jessica even date me except I would buy her things, mostly clothes, heels and lingerie and she would borrow money for her bills that she didn’t pay back?
Now I’m such a cuckold faggot loser. All I jerk off to are pics of her boyfriend’s cock. I’m worried that if I’m becoming a faggot, I won’t be able to go back to just being a wimp. His cock is so amazing I can’t help it.
I was used by a hot cuckold Mistress to get tattoos for her and for me among other things. I really thought she was my Mistress girlfriend. We used to go on dates. She’d always pick the places, like expensive restaurants, shows or concerts. She worked part time as a Mistress in a dungeon, it was a co-op arrangement. She ran her own ads on Eros and other websites and kept half of what she earned. I met Mistress Bryn thru Eros and sessioned with her in the dungeon. I’m in to CBT among other things. I’m submissive, a masochist and tend to drink too much. Not that one causes the other. I would always dream about having the perfect Mistress cuckold relationship especially with Bryn. She’s very beautiful and just naturally dominant.
She would make me pay for any new tattoos and piercings and piercing jewelry she wanted to get. I was happy to do this, since I would really have paid anything for her attention and happiness. She told me that she never had sex with submissives, so our relationship wasn’t about sex. And she told me to never contact her, she would contact me when she wanted to be with me or when she wanted me to do something for her. She said that this is really the only way a Mistress relationship should work. She never let me have any kind of sexual contact with her. I begged to lick her pussy and she said she had a lesbian slave for that.
One night after we went to this comedy show she wanted to see, she said she wanted to get a tattoo for me and a tattoo for her. I had never gotten inked, but I had been drinking at this show and was pretty weak and didn’t want to refuse her. She got a Queen of Spades tattoo on her left hip and made me get a Jack of Spades tattoo on my left ass cheek. I didn’t know the meaning at the time. I thought this meant she was the Queen, the Mistress and I was her jack, her servant, her knave. I was so happy that I got a tattoo that she chose for me. I think I was like high from getting this tattoo for weeks.
About a month after the Spades tattoos, our relationship was over. Bryn cut me off, just like that. I was so broken up, I stalked her online and found an Instagram I didn’t know she had. I saw lots of pics of her with this black guy who I found out later was an arena football player and part owner in some new sports drink. Lots of the pics were dated during the time I thought she and I were together. In some pics she pointed down to her Queen of Spades tattoo while she was in an erotic embrace with him.
Fast forward to me meeting a girl who wasn’t dominant, but she seemed really into me. I met her on Plenty of Fish. Karla is an artist who also does cam shows to pay the bills. When she saw my tattoo, she laughed and said – really? I said – yeah really. So you’re a cuckold – she asked me. I said – no I don’t think so. She then told me that’s what the tattoo means. I told her about Bryn and that she had a Queen of Spades tattoo. Karla laughed when I told her. Then I thought of something when I went home. I checked the Arena football schedule for that guy’s team and cross referenced it to the calendar I had on my iPhone of my dates with Bryn. When he was out of town was when she and I had been on dates. I had been a cuckold and didn’t even know it. By the way Karla stopped responding to my text messages
Mistress Sara, Here is my humiliating cuckold life. I am a strip club addict and always fall in love with strippers. As I got older and gained more weight, I knew I was running out of time before I’d just be the sad old fat ass with a big wallet. So, I asked a stripper who I was in love with to marry me and I was shocked she said yes. I should have known she had ulterior motives. She gave up working at the strip club. She wanted me to give her the same amount of money in cash that she was used to making every week, so that she could do whatever she wanted, mostly shopping. I should add that I live in Los Angeles, California, because this is an important detail. And that I didn’t get a pre-nup, because I thought I could offer her a lifetime of what she would want, since she, too, wasn’t getting any younger and would reach a point where men wouldn’t be interested in her.
Then, I found out that my stripper wife was only planning to be with me for five years, the exact number of years required in California by law to be entitled to a 50/50 divorce partition of community property. She had a boyfriend who was in some rock band and a lot of the cash I gave her was money she gave not just to her boyfriend, but for the band to keep going, to try to make it big, yeah… She was always out and said she was out with her stripper friends, which was kind of believable, all those girls party hard. But I had my suspicions. And I was right.
I found out all the above, because my wife lost her phone and got a new one, then I found the old one in between the front passenger seat and the center console of my BMW and had a friend hack into it, she had a privacy app protecting her text messages. So I read her texts. Her texts to her boyfriend were the most revealing and made me feel so used and cuckolded. She told her boyfriend that she was looking up cuckolding ideas online and that she was going to put me in cuckold subspace and keep me there. She also said to one of her stripper friends that I was lame in bed, had a small useless dick and that I grunted like a blubbery walrus when I had an orgasm. My wife was planning to cut me off from sex soon according to what she told her friend, because she couldn’t stand fucking me. I kept this phone and jerk off to the sexy pics she sexted her boyfriend. I am such a pussy, I haven’t even told her anything I know from the texts.
Now, I have to decide if I’m going to stay married to her, fund her shopping sprees and her boyfriend’s band or divorce her now and be done with it. I feel like such a cuckold fool.